Thoughts of LJ
Jan. 9th, 2007 02:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I read you every day and never post a word. Why?
As fewer and fewer of my old friends post I link about why I pass this place very day without comment and the sad truth comes home. Guilt. I feel guilty for any bit of writing that doesn't feed a purpose - work, classes, whatever.
It seems wrong to put something I enjoy in such a narrow box. Should I only write what feeds an image I try to create? Should I devote all my words to a product I try to sell? Should I create only for utility and never for joy?
I stopped posting a few years ago when I decided I didn't want to be a misery blog. My life sucks, I want to die, boo hoo hoo. For a bit I had nothing else to say. So I said nothing.
I got out of the habit, I suppose. I lost the pattern and focused on other things and nothing. Boo hoo hoo I suppose, but nonetheless....
This week has me chained to my desk, writing on Chakras and panicking.
I miss you.
I promise I'll write soon....
As fewer and fewer of my old friends post I link about why I pass this place very day without comment and the sad truth comes home. Guilt. I feel guilty for any bit of writing that doesn't feed a purpose - work, classes, whatever.
It seems wrong to put something I enjoy in such a narrow box. Should I only write what feeds an image I try to create? Should I devote all my words to a product I try to sell? Should I create only for utility and never for joy?
I stopped posting a few years ago when I decided I didn't want to be a misery blog. My life sucks, I want to die, boo hoo hoo. For a bit I had nothing else to say. So I said nothing.
I got out of the habit, I suppose. I lost the pattern and focused on other things and nothing. Boo hoo hoo I suppose, but nonetheless....
This week has me chained to my desk, writing on Chakras and panicking.
I miss you.
I promise I'll write soon....
clicked on the chakras link and........
Date: 2007-01-09 01:15 pm (UTC)It really has been a long time hasn't it. I miss you so much!!!!! If I end up taking the summer off after graduation I'm going to have to put Youngstown on my list of places to visit.
Re: clicked on the chakras link and........
Date: 2007-01-11 01:31 am (UTC)I miss you too! Come visit anytime... call first to I have time to clean and pretend to not be a crazy person.
Re: clicked on the chakras link and........
Date: 2007-01-11 11:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-11 01:18 am (UTC)Was listening to a radio show called "focus on the family." That kind of "pro-family" anti-gay rights gay-marriage-is-the-apocalypse rhetoric makes me scared to come out of the closet.
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Date: 2007-01-11 01:35 am (UTC)Those people are all crazy.
I've got a job offer to learn wedding photography from the studio I do photo restoration for and I'm not sure I want to do it. I'm so disgusted by how overblown weddings have become and how vitriolic the debate over gay marriage has become that I really don't want to get involved in the industry.
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Date: 2007-01-11 01:20 am (UTC)